when you get to a certain age it's probably normal to freak out occasionally on how old you are..realizing that some people you've been calling your friends for as long as you can remember are just a bunch of strangers, that's also a part of growing up process, either you call it wisdom or just disappointment. but this also helps you to understand that, besides your family, there's still a few of them who really know you and respect you. and that's why i love birthdays. and because of the presents. and for being a good excuse for partying.